Well, looking back it's really been a journey, i would say a journey that is really great as it provides so much learning and growing as a man.

Just to record and look back on what i learn durign this magnificant trip back to Malaysia.
Let's begin...

Well, firstly, i think i learn that i think the lesson i learnt is a very important one.The lesson is simply, do not take anything for granted.Well, i am sad to say that i didn't really plan the whole event for Christmas for my girlfriend properly. Well, i would say from her point of view that it was quite a half hearted planning in the sense that i didn't plan to surprise her with any special programmes for Christmas although i did have in mind for us to have dinner during Christmas eve at some really high class hotel. But, due to the lack of commitment and sense of urgency, i guess it backed fired on me. Well, no point crying over spilled milk, i can and will make up for it for the coming events that is lined up, like New year, Our 2nd Anniversary and many many more to come! So, the thing that i learn here is that, it is really important to plan ahead of time, and ACT ON IT! Don't just plan in my head but to plan and get it down to action!

Ok, for the second thing i learn during my trip back to KL, is that i really really need to be proactive. Proactive is improtant because you never know how you are actually changing someone's day or life while being proactive, and more importantly, you never know who is looking when you are being proactive.

Third, if someone is really important to you, you will go the extra mile, you will make the extra effort to make the person feel important. Well, i did say that Chin is very important to me, but with my actions during KL, i would assumed that she would feel that she is not the most important person in my life. Why? Because during her stay in KL, all i did was to accompany her to shop, which i though was the most important thing to her, but i forgot what she said, which is, that in the things that we do, she wants it to be memorable, and not just something routine-ish. And i guess since she told me that she was excited bout the shopping , all i planned for her was where to shop ,and how to maximise the shopping time, in which, if i have just thought about it abit more, i would be amazed to realise that, yes, shopping is great if u get the great deals, but besides the shopping, her stay in KL would have to be memorable! And i totally ignored it, what a fool! Oh well... Hope i learn a lesson this time!!

So, fourthly, i learn that planning is important. I need to plan ahead of time, so that i won't screw up too badly if the plan fails. And for my new year resolution, which i am still in the process of trying to put it down to pen and paper is something like this.
1. Grow closer to God, and how? By reading the bible (the amount of highlighting would indicate how much i read) and i would want to try to memorize bible verses) and by attending classes (would like to try to finish my Post-E and SOL 1 by end of next year)

2. To save more (to put aside at least $350 for parents, $400 for marriage) not to simply spend my money. Also, might want to record down my spending so i have more control and i can see where my money is flowing

3. To spend quality time with Chin (To plan and bring her to do things that are memorable especially during special occassion)

4. Call my family more often (At least once a week)

5. To multiply my cell (currently 3 people, end of the year, at least 9)

6. To be more active in the Rice-12

7.To exercise at least 3 times a week

Well, this is it so far, i'm sure as God prompts, more will come in!

So, have a great day all! I love you God!! Chin , Dad, Mum, Chi Yao, Mei Yih, and all! ahahahah

Wow, only after less than 2 weeks, my manager wanna pass the camp site to me!!
This is scary, yet fulfilling. Coz after a month of not going home, she finally decides, that she is going home tonite, and letting me take care of the whole camp site tonite!

Well, when i first came, i asked her if we are gonna take turns to stay over night, then she said, if we take turns, can you handle it? Can you take care of everything? And this was just a week ago, and tonite, she wants me to handle the whole camp!

Well, i dunno whether to be happy, or to feel stress, coz i know a little here and there, but i really dunno how to do everything right! But i believe God will help me and teach me. More on responsibility!

Brb, got to do some work

Well, miscommunication really cost a person alot man!
Well, miscommunication with Chin cost almost my relationship with her, but thank God for supportive people like dennis and dellia.

Well, today, not only today, but recently, i have been having alot of miscommunication with people. And a few of ithappened in the workplace, somehow, i find that the supervisor expects me to know what she is thinking, and somehow understand her underlying meanings and wants me to act accordingly.

Like, just now, she called the office and told me, hey, the 2 packets of FOC lunch, pass it to the instructors coz she forgot to order lunch for them. Then she say, i can have mine la actually, just pass hers to the instructors. So, me being me, i wanted to be nice, so i brought my packet also, out to the dining hall and left it there for the instructors to eat. How would i know they were not the instructors, after all, they were like adults, and wearing all the equipment, and she didnt even tell me where to put the food and stuff, so i assumed that the instructors would be with that group who was coming right. And coz today there were 2 groups of people from different schools. So, only 1 group prdered lunch, the other group didnt, so when she say she forgot to order lunch for the instructor, who would i assume the instructors would be from, of coz from the group that ordered lunch right.

Oh well, never mind la, i think i need to learn to keep quiet and just listen, coz she was like firing me in front of her instructors, shaking her head and everything, saying, i told you right, that the food is for the instructors. Then i say lo, i didnt know it was these 2 what, i tot was instrutors from that school, so i brought everything out. Haiz, early know, shouldnt be so nice, eat myself, then at least not so big problem. Oh, no no no, actually, i should give thanks to God, coz this is a lesson that i can learn, on being patient and teachable.

Well, i'm missing my girlfren now....

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
For they will be filled.
Matt 5:6

This is one of the beatitudes and is something that i have not really been moving myself into. I have been working for coming to a week now, and it has not really been the best of working environment. And i complain and complain, but i thank God that He has shown me and taught me to be contented, which is something that i really learnt.

Today's quiet i very enjoyable, coz blessed are those who thrist and hunger for righteousness, and the bible didn't say blesed are those who love righteouness, or blessed are those who want righteousness, but it says, who thrist and hunger for it. Well, as far as i know, when i am hungry or thristy, i am very very desperate. And i feel that in this passage, it requires us to have the same kind of desperation. So, righteouness is not only something that God wants us to seek after, but God wants us to seek after it desperately.

So, thinking about it in my life, and reading a passage from 'The God Chasers', i felt that i am not only not desperately chasing after righteousness, not desperately wanting to live a righteous life, i even take it very lightly. I mean, come on man, i rather read news in my work place, play game than to read bible. So, 1 thing that i want to change from today is, i want to deperately hunger and thrist for righteousness, because i know God will fill it!

Well, i am gonna read the bible more than reading other online articles, and i want to pray more, both in quantity and quality.

Hello!!
I'm at work, and i am gonna enjoy work today, coz i wanna be contented with what i have been given, and i wanna stop whinning and complaining bout work, bout how boring it is and bout how aimless it is. I have been placed in this place to work for a purpose, and i am going to make full use of the time given to me to serve in this new work place.

I really want to apologize to a few people,
Firstly, i really want to say sorry to God, coz You have given me such an opportunity to work in Singapore, to be able to work in this MNC, but then even though it have not all gone according to what I expected, but i am still working in Singapore already, and i am also working in the MNC, although in a different department currently. So, what more cani ask for? Why have i not been contented with what i have been given, so, God, i really wanna say that i am really so sorry for not being contented and not being satisfied with what i have been given.

Secondly, i wanna say sorry to Chin, coz i have been whinning and complaining to her time and again about my job, about how i dislike it, how boring it is. But thinking bout it, i think itz quite a nice place to work in, although it may be abit far out, but i think itz ok la. It's just 2 hours only, not that bad. Well, i wanna stop complaining and whining and start being a man, a man who takes full responsibility in everything that is given to me to complete.

Also wanna say sorry to my leader dennis, also for not learning to be contented and satisfied. After talking to you yesterday, i think it has really opened my eyes, that i am really someone who is not satisfied with what is given to me. Well, the good thing is, i wanna learn to change, and i am at work now smiling, knowing that it's gonna be a good week, because if God is for me, who can be agaisnt me. Well, i wanna enjoy my work. If i am placed here, there has to be a purpose! So, i wanna fulfill my purpose!

Oh man, although i know not many people will be reading it, i dont care, anyway, i'm still sitting here in the office, listening to a bunch of wild campers outside screaming for food!
Ahahha, that's life man at the work place, i am trying my best to stay as positive as possible and to enjoy my work, but the whole day, i just sat in the office and online, waiting to chat with people, coz i have really nothing to do. But i think tomorrow, i'll be going down to the HQ to collect my medical report, and then head to the Minitry of Manpower office to hand it to them, so half the day i wont be in the office.

Oh, did i also mention, it takes almost 2 hours plus to reach this campsite from my house, and all day i can hear screaming jets flying over my head, coz i am really close to the Singapore Airforce base, at least one of it la i think.

Well, i think after a slow day today, and tomorrow, i got a feeling next week is where the stress will hit in, coz next monday, my supervisor will be going for a meeting, and there will be a group of students from Pioneer JC, Chin Ling's former JC coming in. So i have to handle them without knowing much of what to do, coz they will be the 1st group of students coming in for camp, and i have no previous knowing of what to do, so hopefully the guideline given to me be my supervisior will be enough to bring me through it.

Well, other than that, working here is quite nice, coz it is quite slack, and quite fun, coz if there is more people online, i can actually be chatting more, rather than just reading other peoples blog. And the supervisor is kinda nice la, coz she does most of the things, coz she says i dont have the permit yet, so i cant really go do or meet the teachers, so i think after getting my real permit, i'll be doing so much more work..well i think la.

Anyway, i'm hoping to be transfered to Changi Airport, but i really dont know whatz gonna happen there, coz itz gonna be like a whole different field, like maybe need to do some cleaning and cannot just sit in the office and relax like now.

But ultimately, i wish i could get into the marketing force soon, whereby i can go into the HQ, and or go out to meet clients, go make proposal, it does sound scary, but i think thatz work man, as a fresh grad, i cant really do what i really like, but hopefully this will be a good stepping stone for me.
Did i tell you, i miss my girlfren so much man! Chin, i miss you so so much!
I really wanna thank you for sacrificing your sleeep this morning in order to come and take mrt with me, really appreciate that alot! I love you so much!

Hugs!

01) What is the phone brand?
Sony Ericsson

02) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number?
690

03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
could not hear you.. so dun waste money

04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
magdalene Yap (my brother's friend..coz itz his phone)

05) Who's the last person you rang?
Chin

06) Who was your last missed call from?
My house agent

07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
Daniel Yap (My brothers friend also)

08) What does the last message in your inbox say?
65341511 or direct line 4 employment dept 64385122

09)Who comes up under J?
Jas
Jasmine wong
Jay
Jehanne Goh
Jeremy Lim
Jess
Jian Ping
Jian Wei
Jit Cheng
Joanne Ho
Joanne Tan
Joe
Joel Lee
Joel Tay
Jonathan Lim
Jor How
Jooshua Fooing
Joyce Tiang
Jue Ling
Juliane Goh
June Lee
Jun Wei
Just
Dont worry, most of them i dunno one!Ahaha, i wish i had so many friends man! But reality bites!

10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 10th message say?
Dear, you got 200 extra in June i think. You better check

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?
Sg Aunt Khoon Shing

12) Who's your network provider?
Starhub

13) How many messages are currently in your inbox?
dunno

14) What do you have as your background
Chin And Me...

15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?
Rebekah Lee
16) Who do you have on speed dial 3?
Dad

17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?
$11

18) Who's the first person who comes up under C?
Caleb

19) How many bars of signal do you currently have?
4/5

20) What do you have as your main ringtone?
Because You love me

I went to Jasmine's blog, scrolled down to read previous entries..!!!

And ....

Got tagged.

So here i go again.

* You can only say YES or NO.
** You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? NO
2. Painted your room? NO
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? NO
4. Drove a car? YES
5. Danced in front of your mirror? NO
6. Had a crush? YES
7. Been dumped? YES
8. Stole money from friend? YES
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? YES
10. Been in a fist fight? YES
11. Snuck out of your house? YES
12. Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? YES
13. Been arrested? YES
14. Made out with a stranger? NO
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? YES
16. Left your house without telling your parents? YES
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? NO
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? YES
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? YES
20. Seen someone die? NO
21. Been on a plane? YES
22. Kissed a picture? NO
23. Slept in until 3PM? YES
24. Love or miss someone right now? YES
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? YES
26. Made a snow angel? NO
27. Played dress up? NO
28. Cheated while playing a game? YES
29. Been lonely? YES
30. Fallen asleep at school? YES
31. Been to a club? YES
32. Felt an earthquake? NO
33. Touched a snake? YES
34. Ran a red light? YES
35. Been suspended from school? NO
36. Had detention? YES
37. Been in a car accident? YES
38. Hated the way you look? NO
39. Witnessed a crime? YES
40. Pole danced? NO
41. Been lost? YES
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES
43. Felt like dying? YES
44. Cried yourself to sleep? YES
45. Sang karaoke? YES
46. Sucked your thumb? YES
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? YES
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? NO
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? NO
50. Kissed in the rain? NO
51. Sing in the shower? YES
52. Made love in a park? NO
53. Had a dream that you married someone? YES
54. Glued your hand to something? YES
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? NO
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? NO
57. Been a cheerleader? NO
58. Sat on a roof top? YES
59. Didn’t take a shower for a week? YES
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? NO
61. Played chicken? YES
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? YES
63. Been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? NO
64. Broken a bone? NO
65. Been easily amused? YES
66. Laugh so hard you cry? YES
67. Mooned/flashed someone? NO
68. Cheated on a test? YES
69. Forgotten someone’s name? YES
70. Slept naked? NO
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? NO
72. Performed on stage? YES
73. Blacked out from drinking? YES
74. Played a prank on someone? YES
75. Gone to a late night movie? YES
76. Made love to anything not human? NO
77. Failed a class? YES
78. Choked on something you’re not supposed to eat? NO
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? NO
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? NO
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? NO
82. Thrown strange objects? YES
83. Felt like killing someone? NO
84. Thought about running away? NO
85. Ran away? NO
86. Did drugs? YES
87. Had detention and not attend it? YES
88. Dumped anyone? YES
89. Made a parent cry? YES
90. Cried over someone? YES
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? DUNNO
92. Dated someone more than once? NO
93. Have/had a dog? NO
94. Own an instrument? YES
95. Been in a band? YES
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NO
97. Broken a cd? YES
98. Shot a gun? NO
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? NO
100. Written a love letter? YES

Ahaha, my dear went driving yesterday! Not with me though, she went with her brother! HAahah, must check it out how her drivign skills are, i'm sure she will do fine.

Man, today is so hot, another 34 degrees day, but i will choose not to whine, but to do something about it, so, i am thinking of going to chaddy or something, somewhere with aircon to chill out. The band is at my house practising now, they are combination of people from OCF, CCM and some other christian clubs in uni, and they are planning to have a mini concert during 'O' week. And listeinng to them practise, i'm sure it will turn up better than expected, coz 1st, they are practising really hard, and secondly, we have God on our side!! Woohooo!!

Anyway, yesterday was such a fun day, we went fishing!!! Me, rendy, chris (housemates), jasmine, keith, jonathan and richard went Mordialloc to fish! And our hero Keith, before even heading into the deeper part of the ocean already injured himself, some how to hook cut his hands! And the funny thing is, we caught alot of fishes, but alot of them we under size, so we couldnt keep it, and there was a lucky duck or some kinda bird hanging around us, and everytime we measured the fish and it was too small, we throw into the sea, and the duck will somehow catch it and eat it. So, we practically fed the duck until it was full and it finally swam away! ahhahaa, but was funny to see the way and the speed and precision it has in catching the fish. Which got me thinking , we have so many 'fishes' in the world, and we are called to be fishers of man, and i wanna be like that duck, i wanna be fast and precise in bringing people to know about this amazing God!

Well, other than fishing yesterday, life was pretty boring, i cooked the assam curry fish head with assam. Ahahaha, but it turned out not bad, can fight with the SS2 Paris assam curry fish head, but it's all about what kinda curry powder you use la, quite fool proof also! So, actually i am not that terror!
hahhaah

I miss my girl fren so much! And it's only day 8!!!! Another 14 days more to go! I'm sure it's gonna be slow, but that i hope it passes by faster, so i can see her, and can see my family again! Oh, next week this time, i'll be in Canberra!! Ahhahahaha

Love u chin!

Hey, had such a great day today, cleaning the house this morning, but ended up only cleaning the living room and defrosting the fridge. Realise how powerful the mind is created to be. We wanted to defrost the fridge in a fast way, coz our freezer is madness! It made almost 2 cm of iceout of nothing, and we were starting to lose space in the freezer, so it was kinda difficult to defrost the fridge, so i tot, since tim is gonna vacuum the floor, the vacuum release hot air, so i took up the vacuum cleaner, and put it in the freezer to help thaw the ice, then chris comes in and say, why not you just use heater, out the heater inside the freezer, will make the ice melt faster, yea, and we did it, and it helped!

Anyway, i miss my darling so much today, i miss her miss her miss her. I went smith street to get my brother some jackets for the cold winter, and everywhere i walked, i was reminded of the fun things we did together, like shopping for the same bottles, trying to get the best deal and all, and i miss her so much.

I though about it, and i am considering of getting a prepaid card, so i can sms my dearie and not make her so worried! I dont want my dear to be dead worried bout whether i miss her or not, or where am i, coz i want her to know every moment that i am not beside her, i am missing her so much. So, i am gonna recalculate my cash, and hopefully will be able to spare a lil dough to buy a prepaid card!

Gonna sleep now, coz tomolo need to sit infront row of church, coz wanna let my darling know that i aint fishing in church!ahhaha

Nights dear!
I am missing you, even right now!
Muaks!